homemade bread

Bismillah

selamat paaagi. sarapan apa pagi ini?
saya barusan sarapan nasi pecel ((berattt)) dan tiba-tiba ingat sama roti
semenjak nikah dan punya suami dan anak pemakan roti kelas kakap, akhirnya saya sering bikin roti.
pertama kali bikin roti, langsung sukses? ya! sukses gagalnya. zzz
coba kedua kali, sama gagalnya. tiga empat lima pun sama. kasian ya, iya.
kasian tepung sama telurnya, pemirsa. akhirnya kapok. malas coba lagi. ngulen itu pegal kapten. apalagi hasilnya kayak bola tennis, susah dikunyah apalagi di telan. juga tiap sore 'dirayu' sama suara nyanyian dari speaker abang roti yang lewat depan rumah. tinggal panggil, beli, bayar, makan, kelar. ga pake drama ngulen dan roti batu. hehe.

woke up and feel blessed

it wasn't a good day lately
whenever things get hard, i often blame it on my own self
i force myself to do few things almost at the same time
but then i realized, every person has a limit
and we need to learn about our limit before it might ruin all of the plans
you can't force your body to synchronize every desire in your head
things aren't always good and the plan can't always go smooth
so prepare yourself better,
we never know what may come tomorrow or even a minute later
i thank God for my family
that's the only reason i keep going and getting stronger most of the time

and today i woke up feeling better
having people to love is a good thing, but having people who love you is a blessing
i feel blessed surrounded by people who love me for who i am
a blessing called a family :')

and yes, i also made ​​a stack of banana pancakes with caramelized banana for breakfast
that i planned to eat alone but ended up sharing with my hubby

how deep is your love?

been a long time until this new post. kinda busy with my little babygirl (she grew so fast!) and being a cheerleader for my husband. he just completed his examination.
Thank God, it's over and all we can do now is just pray for a good news :)

well, based on the title of this post, i'd like to ask you something. "how deep is your love?"
have you ever heard these words?  me? i heard it a lot. (maybe) many people asked their partner with that sentence, and all they want is just need to hear something sweet and heavenly words like "it's as deep as deepest sea" and bla and the bla. because people tend to hear something they want to listen.

i've asked this question (few times) to my hubby, actually. as a new couple, that question always sounded in my head everytime i saw him busy with his job or his game or his book. until i realized every people need their "me time".

but everytime i asked this stupid question, (as a woman) i always wanted a long and sweet words (which most of it i've already forgotten). but then i feel this is just a temporary feeling of pleasure.
i mean, sweet words isn't a guarantee of happy life, literally. i found so much happiness from every little thing he did in everyday life. like the way he throw me his wet towel after a bath, the way he sang our childhood song "susan, susan, kalau gede mau jadi apa?" or on every stupid jokes he made :))

i've been thinking about the meaning of love. and the answer is, love is a feeling of excitement. yes, it's all about feeling, i can't even describe it in words.
based on that thoughts, i realized, feeling sometimes rises and falls you can feel both happened within a very short time as a blink. but that is love, sometimes bright sometimes fade.
so, back to the point. for me, there will be no more such questions as "how deep is your love?",
love can't be said with words. you can only feel it. and i will not promise that i will love you forever,
because forever doesn't exist in this real world. it's better to promise a thing you'll fulfilling, rather than a sweet promise you'll be breaking.

these are some of my breakfast photos lately, 
you can see more in instagram version here.

it's not a freeday friday

what comes on your mind when i say Friday?
yes. maybe we're thinking the same thing
which is a short fun day, and a few more hours to meet weekend
but not for this Friday (zzz)
my 'bibi' seems like (still) enjoying her Eid holidays
so my hubby and i formed a teamwork (sounds genius, no?) for household chores and taking care of shofi
as you might know (well, nobody know), the last few days we spent time together, shopping, finding new places or just driving around the city (a lotta fun!)
and today, we have a plan to take some time together at somewhere (haven't decided yet)

welllll, after this crazy busy morning, i deserve this kind of huge breakfast
hope y'all enjoy your breakfast ok i mean lunch at this time
happy fridaaaay!

lazy sunday

so what you guys doing on this sunday
i don't feel like going or even move my ass from the bed
my hubby still asleep, so does shofi
we didn't suhoor last night, i woke up, looked at the clock, oh God, it's 5 o'clock already
feel so depressed to realized that today will be a tough day of fasting

yesterday we took shofi for her immunization schedule,
we're out of luck. her doctor had gone home.
the nurse said we just few minutes late! zzz
rescheduled. again and again
on the way back home we thought, why not spend this weekend time at the mall?
what? yes, mall without stroller which it means we must hold shofi alternately
I was looking for glasses, hubby looking for shoes, but we ended up on a baby shop and bought some clothes, leggings and socks for shofi
oh this part of parenting,
i was enjoying my time on a baby shop rather than book store.
unfortunately i didn't bring my cam with me, so theres no photo of shofi's day out and my hubby's tired face.

well, i didn't fasting past few days caused by monthly period, so let me share what my camera got for breakfast this lately :p

how to lose weight after giving birth? this! :)))

a good morning from home :)

xoxo