don't judge, please

sometimes, i let my brain put itself into silent mode
no matter how hard the problem or how things are hard to handle
keeping my brain in silence is my own version to solve the problem
it'll give my brain space to think quickly to deal with the problem
i'm not the kind of a rapid recovery person, i think a lot
i mean, in some cases my head felt like want to explode
that's why i give my brain a break sometimes
i know, you might imagine that i take my brain out of my head
and put it on the table while i sat in a place without it. haha NO!
i'm a kind of forgive-but-hard-to-forget person
no hard feelings or anything like that,
my brain just needs some extra-and-long-time to forget the memories perfectly
especially bad memories (no good for health, really)
every problem looks like a puzzle in my head,
which i have put my thoughts together correctly to find the right solution,
yes just like one, by one, by one (and repeat)
but at the end of every problem, i thank God that my heart usually (always) wins
that's why (as i said) it's okay to left my brain on my desk or somewhere and take a walk
because i know, the feeling never lie while logic sometimes do

well people i do not know exactly what i'm talking about right now
so, do not judge. please :')

afternoon coffee and cheese muffin from TOUS les JOURS

xoxo

hungry? eat pasta!

a few days ago i made pasta carbonara for my lunch and post the pictures on instagram
then some of my friends text me, asking for the recipe
so today let me share the recipe here, simple and very easy to make
and sure not take hours to cook and serve 'em
let's see what you need

 you will need:
    200gr spaghetti (or fettucini if you like)
    1 tbs olive oil
    4 smoked beef (you can use bacon)
    2 garlic cloves, finely chopped
    2 eggs, plus 1 extra yolk
    50ml thickened cream (optional)
    100ml fresh milk (ultra milk, plain)
    50gr cheedar cheese, grated (it's better with parmesan)
    1/2 tsp pepper
    1/2 tsp salt
    2 tbs chopped flat-leaf parsley leaves (optional, you can also sprinkle some oregano)

method:
Cook pasta in a large pan of boiling salted water according to the packet instructions. Meanwhile, heat oil in a frypan over medium heat. Cook smoked beef, stirring, for 2-3 minutes until beginning to crisp. cut lengthwise, then set aside. Place eggs, yolk, cream, milk and cheedar in a bowl, add salt and pepper, then mix gently with a fork. Drain your pasta. And set both aside.

Now heat your pan with olive oil, add garlic wait until golden brown, add your egg mix until boil slightly and until the eggs are cooked. Add the smoked beef strips and cooked pasta for 1 minute stir until well blended. Serve quickly with chopped parsley or oregano. i add some broccoli as garnish.
and LOOK! you are done :D

recommended for lunch or quick dinner. you also can find another carbonara recipe here and here.
Good food and Happy tummy :D

welcomeback bibi~

been a few days after Eid
few days of our busy morning, washing dishes, shofi's clothes, etc
and today (oh finally!) i had enough time to pick a few photos that i took few days before until after Eid
i was waiting sooooo long for this day, today 'bibi' has started to work!! *dance*
i feel my life is back to normal, which is have more time to play together with my babygilr (she's grown so fast, really)
but my hubby also had to go back to work today :(

so. as i wrote on previous post, we spent a lot of time together, to find a new place, shopping, and of course FOOD! i'll share a few photos, not so much because we had to take turns carrying or pushing the stroller (plus) some blur photos because i was using a manual fixed lens (i think i need a new one, hahaha)

yes, today is a fun monday, for me today is a Monday that feels like saturday
wohoo~
wish you had a nice monday too
and for those of you who work, maybe this will help you to beat your first monday after a long holiday: PAYDAY! :)))))

bebek goreng and iga rawit dapoer penyet at karawaci mall

doner kebab at la piazza kelapa gading

kwetiau lada hitam and nasi goreng kepiting at Qq kopitiam summarecon serpong

xoxo

it's not a freeday friday

what comes on your mind when i say Friday?
yes. maybe we're thinking the same thing
which is a short fun day, and a few more hours to meet weekend
but not for this Friday (zzz)
my 'bibi' seems like (still) enjoying her Eid holidays
so my hubby and i formed a teamwork (sounds genius, no?) for household chores and taking care of shofi
as you might know (well, nobody know), the last few days we spent time together, shopping, finding new places or just driving around the city (a lotta fun!)
and today, we have a plan to take some time together at somewhere (haven't decided yet)

welllll, after this crazy busy morning, i deserve this kind of huge breakfast
hope y'all enjoy your breakfast ok i mean lunch at this time
happy fridaaaay!

Eid Mubarak

i celebrated Eid with my husband and daughter
an incredible happiness, really
although was little grief that we couldn't come together with our whole family in hometown
we spend the Eid with food, food, and more food
as i promised, i made pallubasa, sambal goreng ati, and opor ayam
it was good to have quality time with your loved ones
especially on the (long-awaited) victory day

and for you, who have read my blog until this post
i'd like to apologize for all the words and actions that might hurt
:)

Ramadan, i want to meet you again
don't come too late, we missed you already

Minal Aidin WalFaidzin Uncle and Aunty :)

counting down

i'm counting down!
H-3 to Eid
shofi as a 3 months old baby hasn't been possible to travel with an airplane
and my husband also didn't get a long off from his office
which it means we decided to celebrate Eid here, as a little family :)
not at Makassar and Surabaya
i've made some list for Eid menus later
such as pallubasa, opor ayam, sambal goreng ati, and some cakes
yes i know, will be a tiring day without household assistant until H+3
zzzz

well this is just a quick update anyway,
will off to supermarket as soon as possible
i hope you guys a pleasant Eid :)

and this is what i'm doing lately

new thing

hubby's test and report

milk and more milk

dealing with shofi's clothes

work from home

have a good afternoon :)

xo

three months old :)

i remember when you were in my belly
eat, and breathe with me
i could feel your move
i could feel your legs kicking me hard
i could feel our hearts beating in rhythm

three months ago you were born into this world,
i kissed your pink skin
i touched you for the first time
that was a love at the first sight

today,
i can hear your funny laughs
i can hear your gentle little cry
i can smell the fresh milk in your mouth
i can hold your little fingers
i can see your sleepy face with your half open eyes
i can kiss your chubby cheeks whenever i want
i can embrace you until you fall asleep

baby, i promise
i will give all the best thing for you
i will make sure you grow properly, and strong enough to face this crazy world
i will be a good listener of your stories
i will be your bestfriend in every problem you have
i will be your bodyguard in every step you take
i will be a free hugs machine to give you a lot of hugs as many as you need

and baby, listen to this
someday when you've grown and i'm angry with you
it's not that i want you to be sad
but because i really love you and i'm afraid of losing you
i'm afraid of losing my cute little babygirl

baby, believe me
i love you like a flower loves honey
i need you like the night sky needs stars
i want you to be mine till death do us part
so, don't be afraid to face this life
you're never be alone
there will always be hugs and warmth when you need it
there will always be you, in my every prayer

love,
mom 
xoxo

Keep Calm and Forget the Nightmare

awakened by a nightmare this morning, too bad for a lovely sunny morning
so, i open my laptop early than usual, look at some beautiful blogs and end up with updating mine.
thank God, i feel much more better now :)
it's few days before Eid, i hope you have a great day in Ramadan this year
i feel so blessed every day, good and bad things can make our life meaningful
let's called it life lessons.

i honestly don't know what to write right now, so i decided to write some things that make me smile and even laugh lately:

1. some of my friends are getting married! (a very much happiness)
2. one of my best friends @tatuw has successfully completed her final exam
(finally! proud of her)
3. shofi grew cheerful, has a weight gain that makes her cheeks more chubby
4. my husband spent his whole time off with us at home :') lovely
5. new tricks from shofi, such as laughing, and trying to speak
(a language that only God understand)
6. headband orders from some friends. it's happy to be back after a few months without any productive work (will tell you about my headband projects detail later)
7. phonecall from mom

see? i have a lot of reason to be happy, so why be afraid of bad dreams?
why don't make your 'happy' list too?
write them with a smile and get a good day!

and look! shofi say hi :D

xo

lazy sunday

so what you guys doing on this sunday
i don't feel like going or even move my ass from the bed
my hubby still asleep, so does shofi
we didn't suhoor last night, i woke up, looked at the clock, oh God, it's 5 o'clock already
feel so depressed to realized that today will be a tough day of fasting

yesterday we took shofi for her immunization schedule,
we're out of luck. her doctor had gone home.
the nurse said we just few minutes late! zzz
rescheduled. again and again
on the way back home we thought, why not spend this weekend time at the mall?
what? yes, mall without stroller which it means we must hold shofi alternately
I was looking for glasses, hubby looking for shoes, but we ended up on a baby shop and bought some clothes, leggings and socks for shofi
oh this part of parenting,
i was enjoying my time on a baby shop rather than book store.
unfortunately i didn't bring my cam with me, so theres no photo of shofi's day out and my hubby's tired face.

well, i didn't fasting past few days caused by monthly period, so let me share what my camera got for breakfast this lately :p

how to lose weight after giving birth? this! :)))

a good morning from home :)

xoxo

flowers are beautiful :)

currently in love with flowers and floral prints.i did a little research online and found a lot of floral prints sheets
unfortunately i haven't found any that come from Indonesia,
remember its postage would be more expensive than the price sheet itself. hrrr
still about those floral shape, i took some of flowers from the side on our way back home of our afternoon walk around here, photographed them in frame and realized how pretty they are :)

A for ARIF :')