welcome back, monthly period

about the previous post, i blame it on a monthly period
it comes again to bring the mood up and down, sad, and even worse
it came back after 10 months, causing my weekend isn't so good
i feel weak all the time, badmood along the day
well then let it be, it'll end itself few days later

so about today,
the good news, is my father would visit us on Tuesday (yaayness!)
and i told him to bring me some of my favorite foods.
coto, pallubasa, pisang ijo, and so on (yes, so on) :p
which it means getting fat, no? oh absolutely no,
i need some suplement to keep my body works good and of course for the baby too
(ok this is an excuse)
other than that,
i would get help to keep my baby. hold a baby is one of my dad's favourite job. aha!

that's it for this morning
i gotta go, my husband brought me some breakfast
and i won't let them cool
and oh, i took some pictures of my yesterday's breakfast
enjoy your weekend, guys
and the breakfast too
XO

ups and DOWNS

have you ever felt too many things that you have to deal with,
many things to handle, and many questions without the answers, and so on?
I felt it last night, my head spinning, a little pain in my hand,
then my tears flowing down...
maybe because I'm just too tired taking care of babies without parents around,
a lot of the worry that comes up, a lot of question about how to do this and that,
but yes, this is my choice, to live far from parents
and trying to raise my daughter together with my husband.
life comes with ups and downs, aite?
so when life hits you, remember that God give us strength to fight back.
this is not a complaining notes or something like that, really.
I just wanted to let this tired feeling fly by writing this,
and you know?
I know that I'm cool so I can get through this as soon as a flying rocket (heh?)
life is good when you stop thinking about problem but straight to finding a solution.
(you know, it's always easy to say but hard to do and I'm keep trying)
well,
one thing that always came to my head over again when I'm feeling down is,
I have to be strong for this little family, my little family.
because I love them like nothing but more than my own self.
so I'm talking to my self to take a deep breath, and I'll be just fine.
I'll be fine :)

27 years old babyboy

someone is getting older today :p

a man who a bit stubborn, annoying (sometimes) but yes, i love him

dear husband, 27 is just a number 'aite?

but getting older it's a must 

and you know that you always be older than me, no matter what hahaa

today, i'm wishing you zillion good things,

and all your wishes come true as soon as possible :p

happy cakeday dear

there are millions days to go through together, in ups and downs.

so, let's growing old together!

WE LOVE YOU, AYAH!

decorate our room with paper, cupcakes paper, and love. hhaha

making a cake while taking care of a baby is sooooo difficult. well, just fyi :p

xoxo

welcome to the world, baby girl

it's been a very long time since my last update

in this post, i'll give you a good news!

Alhamdulillah our daughter was born on the 9th of May and her name is Shofiyah Ayra Az-zahra

Thank God everything went according to the plan and prayer

doctor's prediction, the 9th is exactly the day of my 40-week-old pregnancy

my mother will be arriving from Makassar also on 9th

and another good thing is, my husband is free from work on the 9th

well i'll share this experience :p

all happened very quickly

that morning i found a few blood spots but we ignore it.

then my husband and I went to the airport to pick up my mom

arriving home, i feels pain or people used to call it with contraction

this is not a real contraction (yet)

after eating and resting for a moment, in the afternoon my tummy was getting more and more painfull.
after maghrib, we finally went to the hospital

arriving at the hospital, at 18:30, I was immediately taken to the delivery room

after inspected, it's already (how to say) pembukaan 4

mom made me a glass of palm juice and the nurses made a glass of sweet tea

contractions become more intense, I scream out in pain

approximately one hour later, at 19:30 the amniotic fluid 'came out'

after another check, it's already pembukaan 6

moments later, pembukaan 9

very fast!

the midwives seemed to be calling the doctor many times

and you know, the doctor said she's stuck, yes the traffic jam!!!

(what's on my mind?) well, jakarta/tangerang traffic could kill me right now

but lucky me, it didn't happen then few minutes later the doctor comes

thank God, my husband always stand beside me during the birth process

and also my mom, a very patient woman, who gives me strength when i'm in pain

ok, then..

at 20:45 am with the strong straining, the little baby was born

2.65 pounds and 48.5 inches long

she is our baby girl :))))

in the morning there is good news and bad news

the good news is, on afternoon my father will be here

and the bad news is, the doctor said that my daughter seems to have infected by bacteria
because my amniotic fluid is cloudy

but after being given some medication, and another lab check, 
she is sterile from bacteria, and we can go home. Alhamdulillah

now she is very cheerful and her weight now is 3,1 pounds

a long story, huh?

well now, the point is

"do not ever hurt your mom.
she struggled between life and death when you were born"

now let me share some pics of her

thanks for reading ;)

have a great day y'all

daddy's little girl

life lately

busy day lately
yes taking care of a baby isn't easy when you have to handle it ithout my mom around
but i enjoy every second i spend with this cute little baby
just wish me luck ;)